I am not perfect. Sometimes, I make mistakes. Yesterday, I made a mistake. I thought about sleeping.
It was shortly after I had woken up. For some reason, it just popped into my head. I thought, hmm, I've been asleep for the past 6 hours. I don't know what happened in those 6 hours. I don't remember the moment falling asleep. I can't even remember why I woke up. How did I wake up?
I don't know about you, but voluntarily detaching myself from the planet for 5-8 hours a night is somewhat disconcerting. Not to the point that I fear sleep, or that I can't make myself go to sleep, because I do know that I need it and that I'll be healthier if I do.
Still, sometimes I think about it, and how I don't have any idea of what's going on during that time, and it makes me pause. It just seems like such an uncontrollable thing. I can't remember falling asleep, I can't remember waking up, I can't remember the conditions that caused either of these things; half the time I can't even remember my dreams. It's something I choose to do, but at the same time, it's something I can't control and know nothing about.
Does anyone else have this?